Dear Future Husband,
Please forgive me if I come across as snarky and slightly mistrusting in the beginning. You see, I have dated a lot of not so good guys before you. I’ve been broken. I’ve sinned. I’ve been wronged and I’ve done the wrong doing. I’ve willed the wrong and run away from what's right. I have been accused of flightlessness and manipulation. I have been lost. And at times have even lost sight of my virtue. I’ve looked for you on the street, I have prayed for you and at times I even doubted your existence.
Even though I don’t know exactly who you’ll be yet, I think of you often. I wonder how you're living your life now. It matters to me, you know, because how you live your life now determines the kind of man you’re becoming, and the kind of man I’ll spend the rest of my life with.
Are your single years being used as time well spent? Apparently for some bizarre reason for some men, manhood doesn't come automatically. I want you to learn to really love. Learning to love is learning to put the other first. A real man loves women--all women--and wants what's best for them. And he doesn't let his desires control his actions. He controls his desires instead. I want you to develop self-control. That's important to me. I don't want to marry a man who can't control himself.
Is your love for Christ stronger than your desire for me? You see, its not enough to simply say that you love God, but I want to know that your relationship with him is active. Can we pray together? Its important that we hold each other accountable to live life according to God’s will. Can you love me like Christ loved the church and love Nic as your own?
We have to drive each other closer to God, not away. You see, all those not so nice guys I dated before you, the truth is I knew they weren’t you from the beginning. But my desire for attention caused me to turn away from that truth. But the woman I am today, secure in who she is in Christ, understands her value and is holding tight to her virtue. This woman, has let go of her search for you, the Bible says that “when a man finds a wife he finds a good thing” so for now I will use my singleness as time well spent, studying God’s word, doing his work, keeping my home, raising my son and writing blog post about how I will wait for you.